not ready to make nice.

not ready to make nice.
not ready to make nice: the Dixie chicks

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting

I'm through with doubt
There's nothing left for me to figure out
I've paid a price
And I'll keep paying

I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should

I know you said
Can't you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it

I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets and I don't mind sayin'
It's a sad sad story when a mother will teach her
Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they'd write me a letter
Sayin' that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over

I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should

I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything

But I'm still waiting
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# Posted on Friday, 17 August 2007 at 11:00 PM

what the world is teaching girls.

what the world is teaching girls.
peer pressure

–noun

social pressure by members of one's peer group to take a certain action, adopt certain values, or otherwise conform in order to be accepted.


society today is teaching girls that they have to look like movie stars && models.

it's sad to see 10 && 11 year old girls walking around dressed like their favorite stars.

honestly in today's world girls have to look a certain way or they are not considered beautiful. what is wrong with the world?

girls from the early ages of 15 are getting their breast done... 15!!! for goodness sake. they havent even hit full puberty. & even more messed up parents are paying for their daughters to get it done. what is wrong with parents. they created a beautiful human being...&& they are teaching them that changing their bodies are okay.

in todays society if you are not skinny like [[Lindsay Lohan, Paris Hilton, or Nicole Richie]] then you are way too over weight! im sorry but, everyone is made the way they are for a reason. your beautiful no matter how big you are.

i can honestly say that sometimes society messes with my head && say's you are too fat, or not pretty, you need this done in order to look right. but, i really do believe that i am beautiful.

when you think about it.. when you have your own kids do you want them to be wearing thongs at the age of 7 or 8? come on honestly.. this is why children are getting kidnapped or raped because parents are not teaching their children the correct morals. be a good influence to your sisters, cousins, && neices show them that they are beautiful && that they have a purpose. dont let society get in your family or friends head.



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# Posted on Friday, 17 August 2007 at 9:55 PM
Edited on Friday, 17 August 2007 at 10:21 PM

deep down

deep down
JUST because her eyes don't tear.
doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry.
&&
just because she come's off strong...
that doesn't mean there's nothing wrong.

have you noticed maybe in a friend or even yourself that sometimes you are not happy. or maybe there is so much going on in your world to realize that the smile on your face could possibly be fake. there are days when i feel like staying home && hiding in my room because, i think im going to be judged or i am not going to have a good day. there at times when i just dont want to wake up... i just want to lie in my bed all day & watch movies & be sheltered from the world.

sometimes i wonder... why don't i just cry out.. i guess i realized that i am strong. stronger then what others may percieve, i know for sure that some of my family think.. i am a bitch. i mean yes i have my days when i may seem like i dont want to have anything to do with them.. but can they honestly blame me? they walk into my grandfathers house && disrespect me. there are times when they are here that i feel like all eyes are on me... && that there is so much tension i have to just fake a smile or leave. why am i such a bad person to them? i mean im a teenage girl that was moved away from people who treated me more like family then they do, it just hurts me inside after all the years they wanted my family here && they just shit on us. like we are nothing. i mean what makes them better then us? im sorry but, they are not nor will they ever be. we are all human we all make mistakes. im sorry but, i am not gonna throw stones at a glass house. i know i have done stupid things && i have taken full responsibilitty for them. but, how can people be such hypocrites & throw stones at my glass house when they have made many mistakes themselves.

i guess faking a smile is a good thing at times sure i hurt inside but, hey a smile can mean a thousand things.

i am going to be completely open sure i have said bad things about them? but, have they not said anything bad about me? [[she is a remake of her father]] yes i may have some of his qualities but, i have other traits as well most of them are good. some are bad. but, the point is all i am asking for is a little respect && i will respect you. i will never stop loving that family although i know for a fact they hate me. but, you know what. i'm happy with where i am at in life.

i am slowly cleaning up my act. && you know what all the bad things that have been said about me will soon disapear cause HONEY ITS MY TIME TO SHINE! so keep trying to bring me down. because you never will i am stronger then u will ever think.
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# Posted on Thursday, 16 August 2007 at 1:26 AM

[[love]] a [[one way]] street

[] a [[one way]] street
love its a scary thing.
love is when your willing to let yourself be one with someone.
when your willing to go through obstacles to be together.
when you know people will judge you & you dont care.
love can be a controversial thing.
but, when your in love nothing will stop your relationship.
&& thats why i am so happy with my boyfriend because we are one.
no one can destroy us.
when we look in each others eyes we know whats true.
when we are holding hands we believe we can make it through.
our love is not ordinary. sure we have our disagreements but, i would rather
disagree with him then anyone else.
pM is my everything he is my stong tower. he keeps me safe. he is the love of my life. && i never
ever wanna let him go. baby you are and forever will be my one way street && i am willing to enter.

baby i love you so much you have made me into a better person. thank you for holding my hand & being by my side through so much. you mean the world to me. i love you so much honey. you are the reason i smile & laugh. your the reason i wake up in the morning. thank you for making my reality better then my dreams. you are amazing. & i know we can && will last forever.
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# Posted on Saturday, 11 August 2007 at 10:31 PM

the basics. lol

the basics. lol
Hi, my name is: kesandra

When I'm nervous: i bite my nails.
The last song I listened to: akons i tried.

If I were to get married right now my best man/woman would be: my best woman would be well 4 ppl. lol tonya. krista. my lil sis crystal. && of course my sister jessica.

By this time next year: i will be taking college classes for photography

I have a hard time understanding: math =[

If I won an award, the first person I would tell: is my mom.

Take my advice: guard ur heart. at all times.

Most recent thing I've bought for myself: uhm food. lol

Most recent thing someone else bought me: a puppy! lol my wonderful bf pm.. how i love him

My favorite hair style is: when my hair is down && straight,

My middle name is: sonya

In the morning I: take a shower.

Last night I was: saying good bye to my boyfriend.. he left to BC for a paintball tournament! i miss him soo much!

If I was an animal I'd be: a monkey.. hehe

A better name for me would be: kesa!

Tomorrow I am: gonna see my baby!

Tonight I am: chatting online with friends.

My favorite color(s) is: midnight blue. && hot pink oh yeah lime green too!

My heart is: taken by my best friend. my laughter. my joy. my everything. my boyfriend.. pierre- marc.
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# Posted on Saturday, 11 August 2007 at 10:22 PM